living in it.
loving all of it.
Taking a leap of faith in yourself seems so much easier said than done. The complexity of the world and its demand and expectations always leave you doubting a true happiness that you deserve.
I have been searching..tireless and endless because I know myself well enough that when I find gems worth holding onto…I never let them go. This past year has tested my loyalty to the things that I love, and while I’ve had my share of doubts, my ending results always bring me back to what I truly believe will make me happy.
Encouragement from others is sometimes not given as often as you would like, have faith in the decisions you have made for yourself because only you know if they are truly the right ones. Do not seek permission from others for your life choices, and know that you deserve the goals you set for yourself.
I have tried to make it a rule to never let anyone dictate my life..though there are times when I wish I received more support than what was given. I am forced to remind myself that most people do not live with me on a daily basis, they don’t know the dreams that I seek, or the hard work that I put in, they only understand so much and allow themselves to give that much in return. As a friend, sister, daughter, girlfriend…I promise to give more beyond what I understand.
“Take a seat, and find your place in the world”
A simple sentence can have so many meanings. We are what we tell ourselves, we believe what we choose to believe.
Finding our place in the world…In yoga today that brought me to simply sitting on my mat. At that very moment, that was my place in this big complex world that we live in. It brought so much meaning to me because I felt centered in that very spot, like I belonged, and was a part of something great and magical. It’s been awhile since I felt like I was in the right place at the right time. Life’s timing is confusing, at times it feels like things simply fall into place…and it feels so “right”…then there are other times when you’re stuck wondering why it hurts so bad.
I believe that my future is good, that my experiences will teach me the lessons I need to learn and remind me of the things I love most. An infinite number of memories to make, but what will I choose to remember?
Love me as I love youCare for me as I care for youAnd when the world shifts and splits beneath our feet,May we never forget the things we did for each other,That have bound us as one.
I knew that if I allowed fear to overtake me, my journey was doomed. Fear, to a great extent, is born of a story we tell ourselves, and so I choose to tell myself a different story from the one women are told. I decided I was safe. I was strong. I was brave. Nothing could vanquish me. Insisting on this story was a form of mind control, but for the most part, it worked. Every time I heard a sound of unknown origin or felt something horrible cohering in my imagination, I pushed it away. I simply did not let myself become afraid. Fear begets fear. Power begets power. I willed myself to beget power. And it wasn’t long before I actually wasn’t afraid.
And the sky opened
And we laid down our armor
And we danced
Naked as they
Baptized in the rain
Of the New World
“The slower you go the faster you learn”
A lesson that definitely relates to every aspect of our life and not just yoga. Today my yoga teacher brought us through some challenging transitions, but the most challenging part of the practice was to let my ego go.
When we become stronger and better in our practice, our egos grow larger and we feel like we have the strength and confidence to challenge ourselves further. That isn’t to say that those qualities arn’t essential; but sometimes we become so eager to do new things we go in blindly not paying attention to our bodies or if we’re even doing these positions correctly.
sometimes if you simply THINK about your actions before going through with them your body will follow your mind eventually. The act of thinking IS part of the practice. It is better to mentally practice it correctly, then it is to practice incorrectly physically.
slow down. and practice with quality.